The Bear 100 Mile



I had to get to the start line within half an hour or I’d miss it. Stuck in this foreign town, I was lost between winding streets and strange houses, unable to find my race bag, or drop bags, or anything at all. Hadn’t I had some hiking poles somewhere? This was Logan, Utah. Wandering past me were people in robes wearing strange pointy hats and the only transport were gondolas propelled by magic only the strange pointy hat-people could work out in this Venice-like maze. There was no way I’d make it to the start line in time and… waking from a restless sleep I realized I was still in bed in Australia, and not in Logan.

The frightful dreams I had in the lead-up to my first 100 miler seemed to be getting more bizarre by the night. I’d never been so outright scared of a race. The first time I’d run a 100k seven years ago, I hadn’t trained for the distance and only swapped into it from the 42k version the day before the race, mainly out of curiosity. Finishing had been a complete surprise, so there had been no opportunity to be scared. This time, I felt like I was looking down into an abyss of the unknown, heading to a foreign land in potentially wild weather attempting a distance I couldn’t fathom. The Bear 100 Endurance Run from Logan in Utah to Fish Haven in Idaho runs through very mountainous terrain with 6,700 metros accumulated climb in weather conditions that, in past years, involved snow and ice or outright deluges.

profilePast race reports sounded gruesome and dangerous, with participants having dropped out after saying they had to slide down icy slopes on their butt. The course was said to be sparsely marked. I had no pacer, I had no crew, I knew nobody there. Lying in bed at night, I imagined getting lost in the dark, far from any road or mobile reception and freezing to death all alone. It was ridiculous, given that I’d be the first person to ever manage the feat of dying in this race, but it became increasingly difficult to get those fears under control. Perhaps I shouldn’t go at all. Perhaps I should just stay home.

I hate the cold, so I spent hours online researching ways to stay warm and read about rubbing chilly on your feet (ouch, chilly blisters?) and how to best run in deep snow, ultimately ordering a neck warmer, waterproof gloves and socks, and gore-tex running shoes. And in rare snow in Australia’s Blue Mountains, I did long runs clad in all my warm gear plus a fleece skirt fashioned from an old yellow jumper. I’d cut off the arms and was wearing them on my calves as long gaiters.

“Record-breaking heat sets stage for the weekend” reported the Salt Lake Tribune on September 25, 2015, the day the Bear 100 started. And so it did. No snow, no ice, not even rain. I was outstandingly grateful even though I’d mainly brought Merino wool shirts to run in. Registering at 5:30am, I asked a volunteer taking down my name: “Is that all?” “Sure,” he said with a grin. “That’s it. Now you just have to run 100 miles to Bear Lake.” Some last headlamp adjustments, and off we went, towards Mt Logan and a climb of over 1,100 meters up to the first checkpoint. I hadn’t brought a camera but I remember the sky that morning well as it slowly turned from dark to light, showcasing its beautiful colors across the mountains while we were climbing higher and higher. We were progressing in a long line and went slowly, but there is nothing wrong with taking it slow at the start of a race. Sooner or later, the trail would become wide enough to spread out a little.

Indian Summer in Utah's Wasatch range
Indian Summer in Utah’s Wasatch range

I’d been enormously lucky. Just about a week before the start, my mother had spontaneously decided to travel from Germany to support me and sample the beautiful hikes in the Wasatch area. She was worried about driving in unknown territory and wouldn’t be crewing, but she’d helped me prepare, had been at the start to see me off, would be at the finish with lots of hugs, and take care of me the days after. I was so grateful for her being there. It’s so important to have someone close who cares at a race. Sometimes, it’s the only thing that keeps me going. My dad had been keen to find out everything he could about  the Bear and was following online, and my sister and her kids had sent me an especially painted running t-shirt. Brendan Davies from UpCoaching had lent me various race packs for a week to try and I was running in gaiters gifted by Lou Clifton, a very speedy running friend in the Blue Mountains. My preparation had  benefited from the experiences and tips many generous ultra runners had shared with me in the lead-up.

And then there was the Logan running community, which must be one of the most welcoming in the world. I’d arrived two weeks early, and in reply to a post in their facebook group, I’d immediately received several messages and an invitation by Scot Weaver to a running group pasta dinner at his and his wife’s place where we’d all bring something to share. Scot, one of the friendliest people you’ll ever meet, got me in touch with Joe Furse, a highly talented runner in his 20s who’d run the Top of Utah Marathon in a blistering time of 2:38. I’d warned I’d be rather slow, but Joe immediately offered to pace me, and Joe’s wife Jenny offered to drive him at some nightly hour to the meeting spot. I was also fortunate to meet Chuck and Babette Burtis, both very fast runners in their 50s who had qualified for the 2016 Boston Marathon. Hearing Joe and me talk about the Bear, Chuck also offered his help. Some days later, Chuck said he’d also roped his brother in law Wade McFarland into pacing me and they’d organize the distances amongst each other once. Instead of none, I now had three pacers, and all of them locals who knew the course. I was blown away by their generosity and readiness to spend so much of their weekend on helping a complete stranger. Instead of feeling blank fear, I now couldn’t wait to spend hours in the company of such lovely people traversing this beautiful part of the world. People can make all the difference. Not to say I wasn’t still scared. Of course I was, but as they say, 50% of an ultra is making it to the start line.

A neat system for the drop bags at the runners' briefing
A neat system for the drop bags at the runners’ briefing

Once we were over the first massive climb, I took the chance to speed up a little to make my next split at the Leatham Hollow Aid station in the Valley. Joe had discussed my splits with me and had run a computer program to be able to predict when I would arrive at meeting points later in the race if I didn’t manage to stick to my target times – gauging speed on a new course over a new distance is pretty tricky. Still, in case the new live tracking system had issues, I’d better try to stick to my splits as closely as possible. The trail had widened into a dirt road and I spent some time chatting with Charles Spelina, who’d come over from New York and was also doing his first 100 miler here. The race is held in fall to let runner enjoy the Indian Summer with its vivid colors that time of year, and deep red, orange and yellow of the trees lined our path. Running was still easy as the air hadn’t warmed up too much yet, but by the time I reached the second checkpoint, the heat was definitely up. It was well over 30C, and some later said it was rather getting close to 40C in the valley. I don’t know what the exact temperature was, but the next fairly flat stretch through the valley to the third checkpoint was incredibly hot. At Richards Hollow checkpoint a volunteer had the brilliant idea of putting ice in my cap and in my water bladder, and boy did that help. The trail now led us back up again along some shady trails, past numerous cows, but no bears, which prompted someone to remark that this race should rather be called The Cow 100. A runner greeted me by name, and I was confused for a moment until I realized it was Charles, who’d changed into a different-colored shirt. This was a trick he stuck with through the entire race, and I somehow never learned that a familiar looking guy in an unfamiliar outfit calling out my name would be Charles.

Logan, Utah
Logan, Utah

We now headed onto open road where the running was easier but the sun was beating down relentlessly. I focused on drinking much more than usual, finishing off 2.5 liters between aid stations and taking 4 salt capsules an hour. My fingers had started to swell when taking less. Still, conditions were pretty good. Having to negotiate these trails in mud and rain would have been incredibly tough. I arrived at checkpoint 4 Cowley Canyon in good spirits, went through my drop bag and left with some new fuel and another 2.5 liters of water in my pack. At over 30C for most of the day, it seemed wise to run smart and preserve energy, taking any time necessary to drink and eat enough. I still had a long way to go and the heat kept beating down relentlessly. Also, I was wearing merino wool. I can’t quite remember why, it’s just what I always run it, because it works well in warmth and cold, and doesn’t stink. But now I wished I’d taken something light and white instead. Different to Charles, I hadn’t left any new shirts at aid stations.

I’d fallen behind my splits in the heat but was still feeling quite fresh in my legs. Conservatively walking all the uphills, I had no problems running the long downhills and most flats and made up good time on those stretches. There were also no issues with blisters after lathering my feet with Bodyglide in the mornings and evenings for two days before the race and wearing toe socks to keep chafing to a minimum. Nerves had kept me awake for most of the night and I’d had only one or two hours of sleep, but I wasn’t feeling it yet.

Finally, it wasn’t quite as glaring anymore and the path turned off into a trail down the mountainside with much of it meandering in the shade. The large quantities of water and salt I’d consumed were paying off and I was fresh enough to run the whole way down, not being far off check point 5 at Right Hand Fork now. Not having a crew does cost time, and I was amazed at how many minutes can get lost when looking for drop bags, going through provisions, running to the toilet, filling up a pack until I was finally out again. I was definitely behind schedule and could only hope that the timing system was working and my pacers knew I was running late. I’d hoped to make it to Tony Grove by dark, but it was now clear that night would fall long before that. Pacers were allowed from Right Hand Fork at checkpoint 5, but I’d agreed to meet Chuck at checkpoint 7 at Tony Grove. Keen to get as much done as I could in the fading light, I didn’t waste much time at checkpoint 6, Temple Fork, which wasn’t even halfway through the race yet at 73k. Other runners passed me with their pacers and I keenly wished I’d have company, too.

Race director Leland Barker
Race director Leland Barker (photo: Magdalena Redl)

Suddenly, I heard someone calling after me. It was Chuck! He’d tracked my progress online and knew I wouldn’t make it to Tony Grove before nightfall, so he and Wade had driven to Temple Fork. On hearing that they’d only just missed me, Chuck had jumped into his runners and headed out after me. I was so happy to see him. I was tired but with Chuck’s company and cheer, the next climbs weren’t so hard anymore and soon we were running again on the flats and downhills. At one point, we passed a runner standing somewhat slumped next to the trail. I checked whether he was okay and had enough salt, and heard he was struggling with cramps, a problem I’d luckily avoided with the high water and salt intake I’d stuck to all day. He’d run out of salt, so I gave him enough of my capsules to last him to the next station where he could pick up more. I always carry plenty spare.

It was a beautiful night with a near-full moon and for much of the way we didn’t need to switch on our lights. The air was still mild after the heat and felt so soft and refreshing, and the meadows and trails ahead of us looked so inviting, that I’d never enjoyed running at night this much. I felt I could have just continued forever then. “Hey Nicky!” I heard as we passed a runner and his pacer. “Hi… good work!” I called back, pondering who could know my name when I didn’t know his. Of course, it was Charles in a new shirt. Running into Tony Grove, we were greeted by Wade, who checked if we needed anything before he would take over pacing at Franklin Trailhead. I don’t remember the next stretch as being very hard, and was surprised how much energy I had still left in my legs, running fairly easily on downhill and flats after a distance I’d in the past found much harder. I finished these first roughly 100k to check point 9 quicker than I’d finished the NorthFace 100k in the Blue Mountains in 2014, despite this stretch at the Bear probably involving more climbing and being significantly hotter. Again, it pays to drink plenty. I usually don’t drink enough.

Sitting down to change shoes and socks at Franklin Trailhead, Chuck and Wade provided me with the kindest care. They helped pull my shoes off my feet, and even gave my dusty feet a good clean with some wet wipes before helping me put on fresh socks and a different pair of shoes. Lori Bowcutt, whom I’d also met at Scot’s group dinner, was volunteering and it was wonderful to recognize another face. She kindly got me some soup and encouraged me on. I was also very glad I’d been able to catch up with Badwater finisher and experienced ultra runner Tammy Massie in Salt Lake City just before the race. She’d insisted I change shoes at least once, so I’d left some here. And sure enough, just the last few kilometers before this aid station, I’d developed a hot spot on one foot that would have turned into a blister without a shoe change. Afterwards, I had no more troubles and amazingly didn’t develop a single blister the entire race. Wade expressed amazement at my good mood after 100k, but who could be grumpy being so lucky. I’d known no one and was now surrounded and supported by wonderful people who were helping me achieve this dream of finishing a 100 miler in this amazing place.  To highlight how kind and enormously patient my pacers were, I should add that Chuck, 58, ran the St. George Marathon in a time of 3:07:53 a week after pacing me, and that Wade holds the Top of Utah marathon age group record both for the ages 50-54 and 55-59 with a time of 2:50:35 and 2:58:58 respectively. Also, the way runners treated each other in this race was always encouraging and kind and you could just feel that the event was put on and supported by people who really care about the running community. It has a really good feel about it.

Joe Furse at Bear Lake
Joe Furse at Bear Lake

I was sad to see Chuck go and I missed him like an old friend for the next long stretch. But I had Wade with me to keep me company and help me find the way, and it was urgently needed. After leaving Franklin Trailhead, my energy level had taken a dive. I was so slow. We were climbing a seemingly very long way up and once the trail ran flat again, I really didn’t feel like running. Wade suggested moving faster. I shuffled unenthusiastically behind him. Somehow my brain had now realized that I’d never gone this far before, and the old “hey, this is crazy, what are you doing, stop this” was back. I hardly made it up each hill. I wasn’t worried I’d stop, but I wondered where all that energy I’d still had just a few kilometers earlier had suddenly gone. Some runners overtook us but there were also some who were doing worse. One runner was retching as we passed, with her pacer supporting her. I was also becoming less and less interested in food, but at least I hadn’t vomited yet.

It’s always great to make it to an aid station, but number 9 at Logan River was dangerous, in the sense that there was a fire burning. It felt like a home I had no wish to leave. The night had been kind and mild, but it wasn’t exactly warm, and exhaustion made it feel colder. I could no longer eat while moving, but managed to eat soup sitting down. So I saw down and ate two soups. It was just so inviting to stay. After over a quarter of an hour rest I thought my stomach would be well enough again to eat a grilled cheese sandwich on the way out. One bite standing up and I felt so sick I quickly spit out the bite and threw the rest into the bin provided. Soon we came to a creek with a couple of logs across. For a tired runner, there were some definite opportunities to fall in, but I took the less graceful path of crawling along with hands and feet on the log until there were only a few balanced steps from stone to stone needed to make it to the other side. Success! No wet feet, and off we went again.

I couldn’t believe it was possible to go even slower, but it was. The low food intake over the past hours had an  impact, and the hills were steep, and felt even steeper. Other runners I’d overtaken earlier when running with energy before Franklin Trailhead were now passing me and I had no idea how anyone could move as fast as them. “Hey Nicky!” one said passing. I was too tired to wonder, but of course, it was Charles again in a new shirt. I regretted not taking more than the one piece of hard candy I’d grabbed at the last station and that seemed to be the only thing my stomach was interested in. Going only on ginger ale now, I stumbled along behind Wade who tried to encourage me to run whenever the trail was going downhill. I was so slow that he often got out of sight and would wait for me down the track. He told me about the local wildlife and that there’d surely be mountain lions in the trees watching us, we just couldn’t see them. I couldn’t have cared less. Don’t they say you shouldn’t run if you see a mountain lion? Even more reason to walk.

With Joe Furse
With Joe Furse (photo: Magdalena Redl)

With great delay, we finally made it to Beaver Lodge at about half past six in the morning where Joe and Jenny were waiting for us. I’d been on my legs for over 24 hours now and we were at roughly 122k. They hadn’t been waiting too long, they said. Joe was a good predictor of speed and looking at my earlier progress, he knew I’d be arriving later than planned. I think he was keen to get going, but I was trying to consume calories sitting down. I really can’t praise Joe highly enough. He’d never run the Bear as a race himself but had paced others numerous times – usually people who have a chance at winning the race. A runner he’d paced in a previous year finished fourth overall in 2015. With me, pacing would be more like hiking. We jogged a little to start, but it didn’t last long. I wanted to take the safe route to finishing. I didn’t mind being slow, I didn’t mind that I’d be far from my original target of under 30 hours. I just wanted to be absolutely sure that I didn’t injure myself or did anything else that would keep me from finishing, and at this point I was never quite sure whether my legs mightn’t just suddenly give way.

My 30-hour target had mainly been set to allow enough buffer time later, in case I fell apart. I’d had no idea how my body would respond to that distance and I didn’t want to be chasing cutoffs. We were safe. Even going slow, even walking, we’d make it. So we walked a lot. Of course, walking takes a lot longer than running. Thinking that we’d still have more than 35k to go seemed insane. I was so tired and had completely lost any recollection of why on earth I was doing this. Why was anybody doing this? But hey, there was Joe and he was spending his Sunday helping me, and there were all sorts of other people hobbling along, so sensible or not, clearly, this was the thing to do today. I was also using this race to raise money for an asylum seeker center in Australia that provides food and health services, as well as language and jobs skills training, and it provided further motivation. Joe stayed close, mostly beside me or just ahead of me, and was indispensably patient company over all those kilometers.

My short-term memory wasn’t working so well anymore and I fortunately forgot the climbs in particular. When Joe told me about an upcoming climb, saying it wouldn’t be quite as bad as the last one, I couldn’t remember the last one. Somewhere we crossed into Idaho and were soon close to the 11th aid station at 130k. We wasted less than three minutes at Gibson Basin aid station and hiked out onto a long straight fire trail. It was mid-morning and I now hadn’t slept for a long time. With only 1-2 hours sleep the night before the race and having kept moving all of this night, my mind was running a little off track. Sometimes I forgot we were in a race and thought we were out for a morning stroll. To pass the time during the endless climbs and descends, Joe and I had been talking about this and that, and for some reason I now wanted to urgently ask him if he’d ever ridden on a deer. I stopped myself though, thinking: ‘you’re slow, but you’re going. Joe might be bored but he seems to feel fine and look how patient he is. If you now ask him if he’s ever ridden on a deer, he might start feeling a little worried.’ It was surprisingly hard work to keep suppressing that question which seemed to want to pop out of my mouth whenever tiredness was taking a hold of me. Then my mind turned its focus to the matter of frog liver pate, not knowing where the idea came from, especially for a vegetarian, or whether frogs even have livers. Again, I made sure not to mention it to Joe. With Joe, I’d make it through this second day somehow, and I was keen to try and appear as normal as possible to him. Frog liver pate might just ruin it, I thought.

Race t-shirt painted by niece and nephew, Ananda and Loui
Race t-shirt painted by niece and nephew, Ananda and Loui

At about 10am, we made it to the second last aid station, Beaver Creek at about 137k. There were soggy pancakes and fried eggs, which were divine. And I could actually eat them, which was even better. The toilet options were a bucket in a tent or some bushes. A volunteer recommended the bushes over the bucket. I took her advice. Being that tired, the classification of: “am I sufficiently out of sight” somewhat changes. The bushes weren’t very thick but they were in a kind of dip, and the only question that really mattered now wasn’t “am I out of sign” but rather “is my butt out of sight”. If the answer was yes, it was good enough. Nobody cared at this point anyway. I dug the race t-shirt from my niece and nephew hand there was also an encouraging card from my mom. I was tired, but I was happy now, in that sleepless-and-having-run-a-long-way kind of happy.

At my speed, it took nearly three hours to get to the last aid station at 148k. The sun was high in the sky, but I’d become less diligent with my water refills to keep the pack lighter, and had run out a while ago, so I was glad to fill up. One last steep climb up to the highest point in the race at 2,756 meters and then, finally, we were over the last big hill. Now it was less than 10k to the finish, and most of it was steeply down. Suddenly I found my legs again. Only 10k! Jogging again now, we headed through the colourful autumn leaves that a cheerful breeze was whirling through the air all around us. The lake, stretching out below us in a deep blue, was a sight that accompanied us on the entire way down as we were getting closer and closer to the water. With the finish line so near, we were overtaking some people and I was keen to keep moving. The track was washed out in the middle, at times very steep with loose gravel where I had to catch myself a few times. Joe was certain we’d get there in under 34 hours. Far from my original goal, but long ahead of the 36 hour cut off. As we were jogging the last few hundred meters, my mum came towards us cheering and running with us. I was amazed how well she kept up, until I realized how incredibly slowly we must be going. But jog we did, with big smiles, through Fish Haven and into the finish.

I can’t remember much more than being happy and grateful for all the help I’d received, for my mom and my pacers, the company of all the other runners, the organizers and volunteers, and for being allowed to successfully complete such an experience. I also remember thinking briefly that most things that seem difficult or even insurmountable on other days, probably weren’t really that difficult at all. Mom remarked how everybody she’d watched coming in had been smiling, and she wasn’t sure how that worked after 100 Miles. And then, after getting my buckle with a hug from co-race director Errol “Rocket”Jones, cheering on other finishers, thanking Joe and giving him a couple of things as a memory of the race, while resolving to mail the little gifts I had for Chuck and Wade the day after, I stretched out in a sleeping bag on the grass and fell asleep, right among all the commotion.

With mom and Joe Furse at the finish
With mom and Joe Furse at the finish


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About Nicky Redl

Nicky worked as a radio reporter, presenter and producer for the Australian Broadcasting Corporation for five years - in Sydney, the Outback in Broken Hill and the Tropics in northern Queensland. She finally fled the cyclones and moved to Frankfurt for 2.5 years as a financial reporter for Dow Jones, contributing to the Wall Street Journal. She's now back in Australia, working as a business translator and spending her spare time trail running in the Blue Mountains.
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